only god knows why lyrics

I've been sittin' here
Tryin' to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself

Lookin' for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man
Bleeds just like me

And I feel like number one
Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son
And it helps to pass the time

I take too many pills
It helps to ease the pain
I made a couple o' dollar bills
Still I feel the same

Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me
It's hard to hang out in crowds

I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Out stretched hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumblin' down
I will always be around

And when your walls come tumblin' down
I will always be around

People don't know
'Bout the things I say and do
They don't understand
'Bout the shit that I've been through

It's been so long
Since I've been home
I've been gone
I've been gone for way too long

And maybe I forgot
All things I miss
Oh, somehow I know
There's more to life than this

I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve

Still I ain't seen mine
No, I ain't seen mine
I've been givin', just ain't been gettin'
I've been walkin' that there line

So I think I'll keep a walkin'
With my head held high
I'll keep movin' on
And only God knows why

Only God, only God
Only God knows why
Only God knows why, why, why
Only God knows why

Take me to the river, hey
Take me to the river, hey, hey, hey