it's been awhile lyrics

It's been awhile
Since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand
On my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can remember
As f***ed up as it all may seem
The consequences that are rendered
I stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I could say
That I wasn't addicted
It's been awhile
Since I could say
I loved myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and
F***ed things up
Just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that sh*t
Seems to disappear
When I'm with you

And everything I can remember
As f***ed up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
Have gone and f***ed things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile
Since I could
Look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said, 'I'm sorry'
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way
The candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember
Just the way you taste

And everything I can remember
As f***ed up
As it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

It's been awhile
Since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said, 'I'm sorry'