in a hola again lyrics

Don't want anyone to know
Who I really am so they'll never see
All the things I hide behind these precious walls
I built just for me
So if they look into the windows of my soul
All they're gonna see
Are my eyes starin' back
And not shattered glass or the broken side of me

'Cause I'm so afraid to show my darkest secrets
I keep them wrapped in chains
And locked up in a place where no one goes
But I'm sure my insecurities will give it all away
I'm heading fast straight for a crash and burn
For me there is no shame

(I'm going down) Back in a hole again
(Deep under ground) Back in a hole again
(Where no one's around) And I don't need a friend
(So safe and sound) Back in a hole again

I'm finally back of course behind the mask
I've always worn for you
To distract you, since I couldn't face the fact
That someone ever knew
That all I am is just some smoke and mirrors
And a gun pointin' back at you
And you to catch me in the act of this
I know it would be through

All these years I've lived in fear, that you would find out
Just exactly what I'm made of
Or what I'm really all about
And it would kill me just to see you
Point your finger and hear you say
"You're one of them" and this I could not stand
So I'll be on my way

(I'm going down) Back in a hole again
(Deep under ground) Back in a hole again
(Where no one's around) And I don't need a friend
(So safe and sound) Back in a hole again

(I'm going down) Back in the hole again
(Deep under ground) I'm in the hole again
(Where no one's around) And I don't need a friend
(So safe and sound) Back in the hole again
Back in the hole again