about my summer lyrics

I took a walk in the park the bluest blue in the sky
Until my legs gave out I sat on a bridge and died
And when they covered my eyes, there wasn't a soul to save
And then they started to laugh, it had to be done again

I know it's the price I pay
You can't feel a heat that's 200 miles away
I'm alone, it was my choice to stay
And stare in an empty mirror at yesterday

I went into a void, you were the void, a maze
If I could keep to myself it keeps me alive untouched
I wear a permanent frown, nervous about my fate
If it's a million to one, I can't hold you down that way

And I know it's the price I pay
You can't feel a heat that's 200 miles away
I'm alone, it was my choice to stay
Here an abandoned minefield that you made